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I don’t know if I have already talked about this but love language can be so different.

It took me a lot of time to understand that the way you show your love is very different from what I expected it to be. This does not mean that in my eyes you love me less or not but I see that when you start to love me a lot you change yourself in a way that translates well to my Understanding of love and when you love me from i think you don’t like me

I’ve seen you do that a lot. I’ve seen you sacrifice a lot for me. I’ve seen that to make me happy you have gone far and further.

I was diluted in the mindset that maybe one person is supposed to do all of this if they love someone but NO the language of love is different your way of loving me maybe be three folds more than how much I love you, but it translates weakly to me !

I would complain that you don’t love me enough. You don’t care about me enough and you don’t give me time enough, but at the same time you’ve done some stuff which blew my mind and made me happy for weeks for example, the very first thing which you did was writing SZ on your Hand with Mehdi and not even showing it to me just you did it and I happen to find it it was such an happy amazing moment for me. I can’t even explain it. I couldn’t believe that it was actually for me ! fell for you super hard that day.

You’ve done this over the years a lot and small small things add up to this big crazyyyy person in love with you. I can never forget you and I can never move on from you me and that brings me to the 231197. That’s super cute. I mean, I may not say it, but that’s all I wanted. Like I’m actually an important person in your life. On paper, it may look like of course I am your guy, that means I am important to you, but I’ve always felt like what is there in me that would make me important in your life. Because in my life, you are the most important person and that is because you’re amazing creative prettiest super nice kindest smartest cutesttttttt and I can’t stop saying how amazing you are but I know I’m not that kind of a guy in your life.

I love simping over you because you are such a creation but sometimes when you in a very small way simp for me I just lose my mind. I can’t even believe that someone so amazing would care about me.

So coming to the point that if you love me so much why do I sometimes feel that you don’t because sometimes in situations the love language translates very wrongly

I’ve never seen you being selfish. I’ve never seen you being rude. I’ve never seen you shouting. I’ve never seen you being greedy. I’ve never seen you being irresponsible or being dishonest or even disrespectful. When you think about all of these qualities, I have a lot of of them and you have none how much better of a person that makes you.

I can apologize all my life and that still will not be enough to justify that I thought you were not enough in anyway. I know I won’t find someone like you not because they are no people like you, but God gave me one and I did not appreciate it enough, did not value it enough and did not put it on the pedestal it deserved. Hence almighthy is never going to send someone he loves so much towards me.

I just wanna make it in Life that you see me of importance. I know it does not matter to you and you just want it for me to grow ! But believe me ! Everyday goes by so hard remembering you and not having you here !

You were my solace for so many years, but now I don't have you! Every day my heart and body ache to have you back in my life.

Please Zoh’ma come talk to me occasionally, these wins in Life feel empty if you arnt there to make fun of them and push me to do harder

Sorry this post was suppose to be a praise on your way of loving but turned into a sad man writing a sad mistake ! sorry