Life Has Gotten So Much More harder [Bonus Blog]

so this blog is because i feel like writing and talking to you.

I don't know if Life has actually gotten tough or suddenly as adults we take everything so seriously or is it simple that i don't have you to talk to thru.

By tough i don't mean like Oh My God! this is so hard. its more like to suceed and to achieve it requires os much more of effort and consistency and so less of time. Maybe if from day one i would have hustled it wouldnt look so hard and tough right now but its okay we will push through. THis need of having you alway arround to talk it out and solve problems is i don't know a good thing or bad because as i don't want you to stress over my problems bit just listen and have your confidence on me. i clearly don't haver confidence on my self but i have os much confidence on you and how amaazing you are like everything awesome happens to you, sometimes i wonder we don't have cause i am not good enough anyways... so when you say you can do it to me, i feel double motivated and relaxed that i can do it cause there is someone who believes in me so thank you for believing in me genuinely , i value you alot

i have learned so many things in the last one year and i really want your input on them. this is funny but no one in this world matters to me more than you and yet things are so wierd

something which always makes me scratch my head is how do you deal with your problems. i am never a part of it in solving or helping all. I could do is listen. Sorry but i think the help you needed was just me to listen.